Getting Back on Track

Back To Basics

I downloaded my Tumblr app again. I kind of fell off the wagon, I haven’t been run over yet, just conscious (bad) eating and less working out.

I have done a lot of soul searching lately and Tumblr is kind of my accountability/place where people understand my struggle and don’t want to know how many pounds I have lost because there is more to life than a number on the scale.

Tomorrow is a new day and a new chance to get back on track. I need to clean up my eating, drink LOTS more wafer and do Insanity Month 2 again and try to find “normal.”

Can we just take a minute and look at my view this past weekend? Spent the weekend in Vegas and did all sorts of “touristy” things! Life is so good right now, friends! More on that later. Oh, and HELLOOO size L polo!

Can we just take a minute and look at my view this past weekend? Spent the weekend in Vegas and did all sorts of “touristy” things! Life is so good right now, friends! More on that later. Oh, and HELLOOO size L polo!

“The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole life fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.”
— F.Scott Fitzgerald (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

Or when they look back and realize it has started the process.

I despise everything about the word “selfie,” but you guys, HELLO size L bathroom selfie!? My birthday is tomorrow and I could not be more proud of myself and everything that I have accomplished since January. I have spent the past few months reflecting on all aspects of my life, more on that later, but just had to share my happiness! I have been buying a lot of size large and have been wearing it all week and couldn’t be happier! I still have a ways to go, but it’s a huge accomplishment for me!

I despise everything about the word “selfie,” but you guys, HELLO size L bathroom selfie!? My birthday is tomorrow and I could not be more proud of myself and everything that I have accomplished since January. I have spent the past few months reflecting on all aspects of my life, more on that later, but just had to share my happiness! I have been buying a lot of size large and have been wearing it all week and couldn’t be happier! I still have a ways to go, but it’s a huge accomplishment for me!

“When I loved myself enough, I began leaving whatever wasn’t healthy. This meant people, jobs, my own beliefs and habits - anything that kept me small. My judgement called it disloyal. Now I see it as self-loving.”
— Kim McMillen (via auberginesheets)

Yup.

(Source: yagazieemezi, via ironphenix)

“It’s nice when someone remembers small details about you.”
— Unknown (via stevenbong)

(Source: icanrelateto, via ironphenix)

Wow. This is definitely something I needed to see. I was going through old photos on my Facebook and came across the one on the left. Who is that? What is going on? 

I struggle almost daily with the psychological part of losing weight. I still sometimes see myself as 245 pounds, unhealthy, stressed out beyond belief, filling voids with food, etc.  Today, I’m 217 pounds, healthier, still stressed out beyond relief, and filling voids with McDonald’s Sweet Tea.  

I feel like if you haven’t been on a similar journey, then you don’t GET the struggle. Anyone can say, “oh, I understand.” No, you don’t get “it.” You get what you think it’s all about. Our society is so obsessed with a number and that’s how people judge your success. I don’t care that I have lost almost 30 pounds, it’s more than that. 

I feel different. 
I’m much stronger than ever before. 
It’s SO nice to be able to mentally think of how something felt the last time you wore it, and it now doesn’t fit. 
I love shopping for clothes that say L instead of XL. 
It’s nice to not think of how healthy you eat…until you feel  like death AFTER you eat something fatty/greasy.
It truly is the little things…and not knowing any of you in real life so I can freely express myself. Ha! 

I really don’t give myself enough credit in this journey that I have been on for the past few years. That photo was taken in 2011, on Spring Break, 1 year out of high school, obviously not making great choices. 

The one in the middle is from 2 weekends ago in DC. Size 36 pants, loose, the weekend before I realized I had nothing that fit me for regular life and spent $150 on a new wardrobe.  

The photo on the left is from March…and just had to show a little bicep definition, not even kidding! HA!!

Wow. This is definitely something I needed to see. I was going through old photos on my Facebook and came across the one on the left. Who is that? What is going on?

I struggle almost daily with the psychological part of losing weight. I still sometimes see myself as 245 pounds, unhealthy, stressed out beyond belief, filling voids with food, etc. Today, I’m 217 pounds, healthier, still stressed out beyond relief, and filling voids with McDonald’s Sweet Tea.

I feel like if you haven’t been on a similar journey, then you don’t GET the struggle. Anyone can say, “oh, I understand.” No, you don’t get “it.” You get what you think it’s all about. Our society is so obsessed with a number and that’s how people judge your success. I don’t care that I have lost almost 30 pounds, it’s more than that.

I feel different.
I’m much stronger than ever before.
It’s SO nice to be able to mentally think of how something felt the last time you wore it, and it now doesn’t fit.
I love shopping for clothes that say L instead of XL.
It’s nice to not think of how healthy you eat…until you feel like death AFTER you eat something fatty/greasy.
It truly is the little things…and not knowing any of you in real life so I can freely express myself. Ha!

I really don’t give myself enough credit in this journey that I have been on for the past few years. That photo was taken in 2011, on Spring Break, 1 year out of high school, obviously not making great choices.

The one in the middle is from 2 weekends ago in DC. Size 36 pants, loose, the weekend before I realized I had nothing that fit me for regular life and spent $150 on a new wardrobe.

The photo on the left is from March…and just had to show a little bicep definition, not even kidding! HA!!

“You must make a decision that you are going to move on. It won’t happen automatically. You will have to rise up and say, ‘I don’t care how hard this is, I don’t care how disappointed I am, I’m not going to let this get the best of me. I’m moving on with my life.”
— Joel Osteen (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

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