This pretty much sums me up. I’m the youngest of 4 kids and just strive to do so much more than what they have settled for in their own lives.
On the flip side, why do I have to “plan” out my life and get pissed when it doesn’t work out like I THINK it should? I quit my job at the beginning of summer, went to Vegas, and was going to help a family friend paint her house. I was under the impression it wouldn’t take more than a few weeks, since I was basically unemployed.
Fast forward 4 months, and we are just finishing up the house and I have passed on so many job opportunities to keep my word and help with this house. Her OCD has turned it into a bit of a nightmare. Who honestly puts 4 coats of paint on a ceiling? Working out is out of the question and has been for some time. Nothing is going how I think it should.
In June, I “planned” out my entire year. I was going to quit my job, go to Vegas the next day, paint for a few weeks, my seasonal job would end around August, so I would find a “real” job and be moved out and on my own by September. I wanted to go back to Vegas in December. I need to figure out who I am, find balance in my life, and go back to school as soon as I can…but that wouldn’t happen until I was on my own.
As we all know, today is October 14 and the only thing I get done is job hunting on various sites 5 times a day and nothing. Today I was basically told that a few positions I’ve been applying for won’t call me back, so I have to call them. They sound about as fun as the weight I’m gaining from being so stressed out all the time.
I downloaded my Tumblr app again. I kind of fell off the wagon, I haven’t been run over yet, just conscious (bad) eating and less working out.
I have done a lot of soul searching lately and Tumblr is kind of my accountability/place where people understand my struggle and don’t want to know how many pounds I have lost because there is more to life than a number on the scale.
Tomorrow is a new day and a new chance to get back on track. I need to clean up my eating, drink LOTS more wafer and do Insanity Month 2 again and try to find “normal.”
Traveling the world made simple http://wetravelandblog.com/2013/tips/best-travel-tips/wanderlust-cure-part1/
Or when they look back and realize it has started the process.
I despise everything about the word “selfie,” but you guys, HELLO size L bathroom selfie!? My birthday is tomorrow and I could not be more proud of myself and everything that I have accomplished since January. I have spent the past few months reflecting on all aspects of my life, more on that later, but just had to share my happiness! I have been buying a lot of size large and have been wearing it all week and couldn’t be happier! I still have a ways to go, but it’s a huge accomplishment for me!